WHO AM I?
Who has not asked oneself this question at some point in life? And if there are answers like I am this or I am that – who is saying this? What would happen or remain if especially the last part of the sentence would drop? The scary, unknown, mysterious, wide, ungraspable: I am.
As a person, I’m an intuitive, high sensitive, empath and clairsentient as well as an award winning academic, curator and writer. I’ve worked over a decade in the high end international art world, followed by ten years of stepping out of all the framework to dedicate my life fully to an inward journey to explore the great mystics of life.
Today I can say – and this is not a knowledge that comes from books or any rational understanding but rather from experience and that’s only ever what I can sincerely refer to: I’m all of this and, at the same time, infinite, void, silence, nothing.
In the canon and in the eyes of our social conditioned idea of success – which is defined as some kind of a linear ascent – pretty much a failure, one could argue. The truth, however, is, that we are all multidimensional beings that have been squeezed and squeeze ourselves in boxes in order to follow conventional standards.
When I look at my own life, the people who have inspired me most and enriched my life beyond imagination are the ones who have not taken the well-trodden paths in life even though it meant many times a more bumpier road. They are the ones who have followed their hearts and inner voice even though it meant to be vulnerable. And they are the ones who have, as well, always been drawn to an aesthetics and beauty that reveals the subtle, yet all pervading, undeniable presence of something greater.
For a long time, it seemed to be the story of my life to be split in between the worlds and to feel, wherever I go, that I need to hide a part of me. For the spiritual people, I was a “too” scientific and for the scientist and distinguished art people, I was “too” esoteric, whatever that may be.
And truly because of this, and to break through this separation of our categorized thinking mind, I have decided to bring all “what I am” and have to offer together.
Yes, it makes me vulnerable because I show myself naked, whole, in fact. But I also came to the understanding that it’s exactly this vulnerability that is our most accurate measurement of boldness.
I hope you enjoy exploring while travelling through these pages and I encourage you to only take what resonates to find your own truth and wisdom.