Trust means to surrender in a moment of total unknown.

Again and again.

In the moment you break through the veil, you enter a spaciousness, an ever-widening spaciousness. 

Resting in that spaciousness is the peace and quietness you long for. There all the safety can be found.

Money comes, money goes. Form comes, form goes – out of emptiness and back into it. 

We can observe it every day. 

And yet we believe that we can hold on to it – hold on to that which changes. This is not possible. No safety can ever be found there. This is what we know intuitively. And exactly because a part deep inside of us knows this truth by heart, the fear pattern of the mind plays out drastically in these days.

The fear we feel as human kind is tied to our believe system which is routed in the idea of the safety of the world.

I had an experience this last weekend that I would like and feels important for me to share with you!

I was at home in my little studio apartment in Brooklyn, it was around 8 pm on a Saturday evening, still daylight, my windows were wide open as a first cool breeze entered the room after a really hot and humid day here in New York. I became aware of a yelling male voice outside. It would not stop. It even got louder and more aggressive and so did the weeping of a woman. It went on and on and on, with not much variation in his wording which alternated between fucking and bitch or a combination of the two and the energy down there on the street got worse.

At a certain moment, I as was sitting at my desk writing, I jumped straight up from my chair with the direct calling to go down there. As I just got home after a long day and wasn’t supposed to go out anywhere, I was already in my homey dress with some old, striped men shorts and an even older loose t-shirt that I’m dragging with me now for probably the last ten years until it will completely fall apart. I just slipped into my flipflops and grabbed the key. Outside of my apartment door there was this short instant, where the voice in my mind was saying “Are you sure you are doing the right thing, Tina?” – but in the same moment my hand was already turning the key in the lock. So, no question!

It's like a piece of art. If you start with it, you have for a long time no sense of what will become or what will emerge, whether text, image or song. You may work on individual parts, such as with a sculpture, more on the nose, on the eyes or on the fingers. Maybe at some point you will know that it will become a human figure. But what does it look like – a man, a woman, in motion, static, with eyes closed or open? – You don’t know all that yet. Only the process of creation can reveal that, every new moment.

With the striking new moon and the partial eclipse at the middle of the month, on Friday 13 July, a phase of the second half of the year is ushered in, in which you will get a feeling for, more and more sensing, what YOUR sculpture of life is – by the concrete manifestation and reflection in the outside.

And not just in the form of a vision, but through the actual shaping and merging of the individual parts! This has not been easy on the way so far and has certainly made you despair in some dark nights of the soul, precisely because there was no direct reflection on the outside; supposedly no sense. There was and is "only" this inner knowledge without being able to explain it to yourself at times. And you have followed again and again, where it has carried you from within, without knowing what the big picture finally adds up to.